i couldn't bare to see the sadness in her eyes. the pain, the anger that resides in her. yet she tries to stay as strong as she could. facing the parents and siblings of her partner, i can feel the shame and sadness in both parties. after what has happened and what is GOING to happen. i am just there to witness it all.
frankly, i dont know how to react to these kinds of situation. she gave me a choice to leave her alone at his house. i chose not to. i know that she needs me there to give her support.. at least i'm there to console her..
i came to my own conclusion that he is mentally unwell. he is facing great depression. i guess he's the kind of person who keeps it all inside. obviously it builds up over years. lying is one of the symptoms of stress and depression. simply because he choose to create his own world in his mind so that he can forget other problems. so now, he has multiple identities and this cannot be cured unless he seek help from a professional. the more he resist, the more he will get worst. things like this dont just go away in a day.
i pity his family.. especially his parents. they told us that they have been facing this for both their sons. but the 2nd is better simply because he has a job and living his life normal. only him.. he is causing the troubles in their lives. when i look at them, they have the faces full of despair.
in this story, everyone is sad. even i am. haiz...
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
we often do things that are unorthodox... things which are outrageous.. thats why we called HUMANS. we are weak and do not have control of ourselves.
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how can we not be depressed after doing something obnoxious? we tend to hit, slap, beat, kick, hurt ourselves in any way we can so that we can feel better. truth is, its over and done. no point inflicting pain physically and emotionally coz it doesnt do us any good. sit down or lie down.. have a good cup of hot cocoa or tea or coffee.. clear your mind and relax.. switch on to symphonic melodies if it helps you to relax.. take a deep breath and tell yourself that it is OVER. cry if you have to.. let it all out.. and the most important is.. YOU SHOULD NOT LET A STAIN RUIN YOUR SHIRT. what it means is, its a stain in your life, take better precaution next time so that it would happen again. learn from of steps in life and you will be smarter and stronger.
if you need me, i can lend a listening ear for you, lend a shoulder for your tears..
just....
love yourself and the people who loves you genuinely. we live only once on this Earth and life is just too short.
love..
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
no matter what happens, i'm gonna be by your side. aw love.. i hope you will get well soon. my world wouldn't be as exciting if there is no you.. i will never be whole.
i'm waiting for you.. to recover.. i will visit you everyday.. making sure you're ok.. and i will do whatever it takes to make sure of that.
cayunk, please don't leave me. you're my precious. everyday i pray that nothing is serious and hopefully you get discharged soon.. the idea of you in the hospital is driving me nuts.
